:: Silih berganti ::

Ada ketika, hidup ini penuh dgn kegembiraan, kebahagiaan, gelak ketawa...
Ada ketika, hidup ini penuh dgn kekecewaan, kesedihan, iringan air mata...

Gembira dan duka itu sentiasa datang silih berganti...

Tetiba teringat akan perbualan ini;

Husband: Kenapa yer, kadang2 I rasa gembira sangat...tapi kadang2 I rasa sedih dgn tiba2.. without any reason

Wanie: U ada fikirkan ape2 ke?

Husband: Takde, sekejap I rasa hepi, tapi kadang2 tetiba je I boleh rasa sedih...

Wanie: Hurm.. mcm tulaa lumrah hidup. ada masa kite gembira, ada masa kite ketawa...

Masing2 terdiam seketika...

Husband: Erm... Ada perasaan gembira & ada perasaan sedih. Tuhan bagi kite kegembiraan supaya kite dpt lupekan akan kesedihan yg kite alami.. dan Tuhan bagi kite kesedihan supaya kite mengingati kembali kegembiraan yg kite kecapi...


22 Mei 2009

Tahniah buat pasangan Afiz & Farah Fadlina yg telah selamat diijabkabulkan...
Me tak sempat nk hadiri both kenduri disebabkan masih berada dlm wad ketika itu...
But I'm so hepi for both of them...
Rasanya belum terlewat utk wanie ucapkan selamat pengantin baru kepada mereka..
Semoga selamat menjalani kehidupan berumah tangga.
Afiz is ma fren, juga one of Azhar's bestfren dan merangkap org tgh yg bertanggungjawab menemukan me & azhar.. WINK WINK!!!

Alhamdulillah, now he's married!!

Tahniah buat Afiz & Farah

But then.....

22 June 2009

Setelah genap sebulan mereka bernikah.. adik mereka yang dikasihi telah pergi menemui Illahi..
Sesungguhnya, Allah mengasihinya dan mengambilnya lebih awal dalam dakapan kasih-Nya.

Al-Fatihah buat arwah Afdzal, the man in blue...

Memang tidak mudah utk mengikis rasa rindu kehilangan orang yang dikasihi.
Itulah tanda-tanda kasih sayang. Tidak mudah juga untuk memujuk kesunyian hilang teman dan tempat bergurau senda. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul..

"Kalau setiap orang itu berupaya memikiri tentang ketetapan Ilahi, qadak dan qadar ketentuan Allah, kesedaran akan timbul, bahawa tidak ada manusia yang berupaya mengubah ketentuan-Nya. Allah Maha Mengetahui rahsia yang tidak terungkai oleh pemikiran manusia di atas ketetapan-Nya.Kematian adalah rehat daripada kedukaan dunia"
- Dr Amran Kasimin

Dear Afiz & family,

Our heart is filled with sadness at your loss of Afdzal.
Our thoughts are with you and your family...
Wishing you peace & healing...
Semoga dia ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 yang beriman. AMIN

Al-fatihah.


Deepest sympathy;
Azhar & Irwanie


Pic Sources - Credit to Faizul

:: Wad 5F ::

Hye all,

It's been a while seen I last update my blog!
Not bcoz of 'BIG M' datang melanda...
I got a lot of stories to share... mcm2 kisah ada... but when it comes to 'sooo many', then dunno where to start... ehehehehe..plus not in da mood to blog laa...
Lagipun almost stories yg dah basi.. especially stories dat not-so-great laaa...

Well, I'm 32 weeks pregnant now...
After a few babak 'anak wayang' , syukur alhamdulillah... I have come dis far.
Thanks to Allah Almighty for still giving me a chance, to keep on caring my baby...
Its about another 61days to go.. until my EDD..
Either normal or Caesar delivery - kena redah jugak... :)

As for my pregnancy updates, me & my baby doing pretty fine except for my back aching & having heartburn...Hurm.. it makes me feel quite uncomfortable... since I start experiencing it in the second half of pregnancy...
Latest scan I had on 4th June (30weeks), my baby weight was around 1.5kg. My baby actively kicking, playing, moving, dancing & lepaking inside my belly while his mom keep on gaining weight... ayoyoooo...

My last checkup at Hospital Serdang was on 21st May 2009 and jeng jeng jeng...
Again, I was admitted to the hospital so that the bleeding can be monitored.
Damn bored I tell you!!
Masa tu, I was given 'dexa' injections to help my baby's lungs mature just in case he was born early (premature labour). Mental & fizikal mmg 100% tak ready lagi to give birth..
Lagi2 memikirkan my baby yg masih kecil lagi..

Dah jadi super senior dah kat WAD 5F tu.. Doctor2 pun semua tersengih 'Eh, akak ni lagi...'
High blood pressure la jugak...when the doctor asked me to stay in the ward until my baby is ready to be born... owh no! Lagi 2bulan maaa...Terus sms-ed Incip Azhar and he replied,

'Xpelah sayang, thats the best for you and our baby, eventhough not the best for me. Kita sama-sama bersabar eh. ;)'

Hurm, terus hati jadi sebak.. :(
Well, alhamdulillah.... After 2weeks me 'diperap' (pinjam ayat doctor) in da ward, I'm being allowed home again... YAHOO!! Yes, I'm at home now!!! Luckily, masa buat last scan on 4th June tu, placenta dah moved up sedikit... from PV Type 2, dah jadi PV Type 1 Anterior....
As mentioned by doctor, the placenta is still positioned low but the baby still can be born vaginally...

Thanks to everyone that has been praying for me and my baby...
Eventhough, masih keep on bleeding on & off ni, but I hope that everything will be fine...
My next checkup, 2weeks from now.. harap2 laa result ok!

Dah tak larat ni, sakit pinggang!
Till my next entry (entah bile la plak..), see ya!!

[miss my wardmate badly - kak anin, kak vaya & emira]

:: His Birthday ::

To my dear hubby,

HAPPY 30TH BIRTHDAY!!!!

Me & our baby wish for you :-

1.more happiness & happy memories
2.good health
3.become richer (so dat we can shopping more and more...hahahaha)
4.more success in your career
5.more opportunities for your personal growth

You’re the breath of life in US...
Do not worry about your age, at least you get to turn a page.... :)


Million hugs from;
Two of US

:: Ada satu citer nih... ::

Entering Final Trimester

Last Saturday rasa mcm public holiday je utk me.. hihihi
After bout a month me asyik terperuk dlm wad n rumah..
No jalan2 cari makan, no enjoy2, minda mmg tak berkembang langsung rasanya time tu..
So, sabtu tu pujuk2la the husband.. bawak me jenjalan..
Sbb rasa mcm dah ape jer badan and minda ni..
Tatau ape dah jadik kt luar nun..

Luckily azhar agreed.. tu pun tatau nk gi mana..
Syaratnyer takleh gi jauh2..
Kalu ikutkan mmg takleh gi mana2 lagi pun..
So MINES paling dekat yg Azhar agreed nak bawak.
Plan nak la beli barang baby skit2.. since me asyik masuk wad.. n bleeding..
So no time utk shopping.. tatau la if incase, tetiba laa me terdeliver awal from the due date..
Kena pinjam baju aliloaqili la kot...hehehe

Sayangnya kat Anakku MINES, tak byk choice...
Lagipun me tak larat nak berjalan..
Masuk 2 3 kedai, dah rasa nak balik.. huhuhu
So, we had lunch at Station Kopitiam aje..
Lepak2 borak2.. sambil tgk gelagat manusia...

By the way, wanie nk share satu cite ni.. hehehe
Cite yang boleh dijadikan sebagai peringatan utk semua, especially.. yg ada anak kecil, bakal mendapat anak.. dan semua la yang ada anak sedara, anak angkat, adik2 yang masih kecil..
Ni berlaku masa on the way nk gi MINES la..
Azhar stopped kt Petronas, nak isi minyak...

Sampai je stesen minyak, rasa mcm pelik jer..
Ada satu kete ni, ramai plak orang berkumpul kat situ..
Erm.. me pun duk fikir.. apehal lak tu?
Ada orang pengsan ke dlm kete..

Nasibla Azhar isi minyak betul2 sebelah pam tempat kete tu parking..
So leh la me join 'jaga tepi kain orang' gak... hehehe
Cuaca time tu panas terik...
Owh rupanya ada budak kecil dalam kete tu.. rasanye dlm umur 2tahun camtu kot..
Me pun tak sure sgt laa...Budak kecil tu terkunci dalam kete ayah dia..

Dengar2 orang yg ada time kejadian tu cite...
Ayah dia kuar nak isi minyak.... Then mak dia plak kuar gi toilet.. So tinggal anak dia jer dlm kete.. Kunci kete ayah dia tinggalkan kt dalam... Hurmmm.. soo, tetiba anak dia pi tekan button 'lock' tu.. So semua pintu dah terkunci..

Aduiiiii...
Dah satu keje plak nk bukak pintu kete...
Semua bagi instruction kt budak kecil tu..
Suh bukak pintu..
Tapi budak kecil tu mana la nk faham kan....
Dia duk lepak je kat seat belakang..
Rasanya lama jugak budak kecil tu duk dlm kete tu...
Dlm keadaan kepanasan satu hal la...

Byk la usaha2 dilakukan..
Ada yg cabut getah kt tepi cermin... pun tak jalan gak...
Me tak tau la at last, cemana diorang solve kan prob tu..
Either ayah dia balik rumah amek kunci spare ke..
Pecahkan cermin kete ke..
Panggil tukang kunci ke.....Wallahuallam..

Tapi for me, ni adalah satu pengajaran utk semua...
Shud be, mak dia tak patut tinggalkan anak dia dlm kete sorang2 kan..
Either just tunggu sampai ayah dia selesai isi minyak..baru la ke toilet.
Or ayah dia patut buka tingkap dulu.. b4 matikan enjin..
Well, kdg2 kite selalu cuai..n tak terfikir pun hal2 mcm ni akan berlaku kt kita..

So, semoga dari citer ni, kite lebih prihatin terhadap anak2 kecil..
And sentiasa beringat...

I'Allah...

:: Mr Mama ::

ohooo...
I'm back to my working life...
Its been a month... I didn't go to the office... [poor me.. aduhhh]
I'm still in the 'quarantine' phase.. doing my works from home until my next scan on 21st May.

Soo many things going on.. and its really impacted my daily life...
GOD is testing me again and again... but as a human, when we encounter a challenge, we still have the freedom to choose how to react on it, right?
Every decision that we make has significance...

Spent my days - 2weeks at the hospital, mula2 sangat la bosan...
Of coz its good staying in the ward.. so the docs and nurses boleh monitor all the times.. even tgh tido pun diorang kejut.. nak check blood pressure...
Baju pun orang basuhkan.. makan pun orang sediakan.. eventhough paham2 jelaa makanan hospital..
Luckily, azhar belikan me game.. so belasah main game laa sampai tutup mata..
Kalau anak nanti asyik main game.. jgn salahkan ibunya yer.. hehehe

And its deeply touched, bile tgk anak2 kecil selamat lahir ke dunia...
Time tu dlm fikiran...and deep inside my heart... I'm waiting my next phase of life.. being a mom.. diri sendiri not sure, uhhh am I ready for that?

How time flies, begitu cepat masa berlalu....
Dipertemukan, bertunang, diijabkabulkan... and mengandung dlm tempoh setahun..alhamdulillah!!!
Yeah.. it will happen when it supposed to happen... dengan takdir dan kuasa Tuhan...
And not to forget, sebelum Tuhan menghadiahkan pelangi, pastinya hujan datang terlebih dahulu..Bcoz everything in GOD's hands... :)

I'm not blaming the faith...why I have been thru all this difficult path..
Bcoz life would never be "trouble free", I'm here just to share what I feel...
Life is about sharing?? hehehe...
God knows BEST!!
Juz hope dat, everything gonna be fine... and I can be much stronger than before...yeah!!
So far baby grows well!! lagi kuat dia berlatih futsal...

Currently, me away from all the housekeeping duties!! Azhar la yg jadi Mr MAMA... hew hew hew...
Dialah hang kebun, tukang masak, tukang dobi, driver etc...
But kdg2 dibantu oleh my lil sis, my mom n my mom in law... hehehe
Walaupun rumah ada tunggang terbalik skit... tapi takleh nk fikir skrg ni..
Oleh itu, anda2 tidak digalakkan utk datang ke rumah saya buat masa ni, ada pemandangan yang agak tidak menyenangkan :-P
But I noticed dat, Azhar lipat baju lagi cantek & kemas dari me!!! hahaha

I'm glad to have him in my life...
He teach me how to overcome these challenges...
Taking care of woman is not an easy job.!!
Sikit2 nangis, sensitip pun yer... hahaha..
but no matter what hard times we've been through....
My love has kept on growing for him and our little bundle of joy....

Being pregnant is such an amazing journey!!
Membesar dgn sehat, tak perlu minum milo pun... hahaha..
But as my fren said, 'dunt worry la.. pregnant mums are sexy in their own way...' hohoho I loikeee...
Skrg baru tau cemana mak kite dulu menahan sakit pinggang and belakang..dengan perut yang semakin besar...

{Saya semakin menyayangi mama saya} - MUHASABAH DIRI

me at 26weeks

[Morale of the story...]
*Trouble is part of our life, if we dont share it, we dont give the person who loves us a chance to love us enough...We must tell our partner what are we expecting from them and should ask what they expect from us...and how we favor people we love.....*

Sekian, sesi mengarut selesai. Tamated.

:: I Wish I Could Tell You Mom... ::

with Mama & Aya...

I wish I could tell you, mama
How much YOU mean to me....
But there are no words to say
how much I ADMIRE you...
how much I APPRECIATE you...
how much I THANK you
for everything you've done.

"M.O.T.H.E.R," A word that means the world to me......Hmm... my mama, my friend so dear....

Mama,
Thanks for being you..
Sangat rindu kat mama...
Harap2, mama dapat datang next week...
Jasamu hanya Tuhan yang mampu membalasnya...
Semoga mama sentiasa dilindungi dan dirahmati Allah..
Dimurahkan rezeki dan dipanjangkan usia...
Terima Kasih kerana bersusah payah membesarkan wanie...
Dun worry too much mama, I'll taking care of myself..
Love u badly!!

***********************************************

Umi,
Glad to have u too...
Oleh kerana didikanmu, wanie dikurniakan seorang suami yang baik..
Alhamdulillah... Tuhan mengizinkan wanie berada disisi umi dan azhar..
Jasa umi pun hanya Tuhan yang mampu membalasnya...
Terima Kasih sebab byk jaga wanie selama ni.. shud be wanie yang tolong azhar jaga umi kan..
Proud to be a part of your family!!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!

TO MAMA & UMI

:: Homesick... ::

We've been through a lot twogether...

And at this period of time....
I miss my family badly!!!

Nak balik...tapi tak boleh...
Tak boleh sebab saya sayangkan diri saya, baby & family saya....
So, keinginan itu harus diketepikan dahulu...

Like Aboh said,
'Sabarlah..wanie, ada hikmah kenapa Tuhan menduga sebegini...'


It was an amazing journey actually!!! :)